Exams

Hate exams as much as I do?

I hate sitting still and having to concentrate on exams work, very more so when other things can be so much more fun and distracting though trying to work on some fun ideas to launch June off with a bang. 

So bare with the girl with a cold, will post some stuff again as of next week. *scouts honour*

The path can be what you make it.

This isn’t a “oh poor me post”, in fact this isn’t even give me a hug and chocolate and everything will be all right post. It’s a pure, I don’t know what I am doing, I don’t have a clue how to do it and somehow I am okay with that. In theory, I am okay with being a drifter but now as I am approaching 25, I realise, that I want a dream. I want to be able to say, this is my goal, this is what I want to achieve with my life. This is what I am doing, and this is where I want to end up.

So I decided to step out of the shadows that is living with my family of serious over achievers and instead of focusing on what they are doing, I am going to focus on what I want to do and how I want to do.

I am, going to chronicle the journey of how I grow up, I am not finding myself since I have never lost myself. I know who I am and I have a fair idea of how I want to be when I am all grown up.

I am just trying to find the path I need to follow in my way of growing up. Everyone has a journey, some are smooth like a highway and others are small forest paths with moonlight shadows from time to time to show they still on the path.

I think in an odd way, I prefer the forest path with moonbeams than the easy path. If it was easy highway coasting, I wouldn’t trust it and it wouldn’t feel like my path. Again, some people achieve genuine happiness on doing what everyone else does and sometimes it's not even doing what everyone else is doing but just doing it the way everyone else is doing.

This past weekend, I was a bit shocked and a little hurt, I have started experimenting with an idea for a business and even though I am a little bit of a lot clueless with what I am doing, I am moerse excited about what I am doing. People I care for and respect, practically told me not to do it because someone else is doing it and how dare I be competition for someone else. They threw the, it is a single mother and poor woman excuse in my face, like I should be ashamed for having a dream or an ambition similuar to someone elses? 

My response to this was:

• Well I find, I do have a serious screw them if they don't want me to do it attitude, after all if people didn't have competition or more people that do similuar things then we would be screwed, there are far to many people on this planet that every single person has a different job and every business delievers a different product. Can you imagine if there was only one pizzaria or one cellphone producing company on earth? 
• I hate the ooh poor single mother thing, life is so hard. For pete's sake, my mother was a single mother and I have never ever heard that arguement in my life and her life hasn't been all sunshine and roses. When you start using that excuse you take all the power away from yourself and give other people the right to pity you instead of respect you. Work for what you get, don't get some where in life by playing the pity card.
• Lastly, we are very different people, just because we want to do a similuar technique of art, does not for one instance mean that our products or what we do will look remotely the same.

So here it does, find a dream, don't listen to the demons with good intentions that want to make you feel bad for doing something or for how you do it. It is fine if you screw up a few times along the way as long as you learn and move on. You get what you put in, so work at your dreams and its fine if they took a while for you to figure out. 

Swazi Crafts

Some seriously beautiful Batiks.

House on Fire

House on Fire in Swaziland


They're a venue for concerts, weddings, and other functions. Really a great fun location, one can't help but wonder what had they taken when they made the place though.

My mom and our family friend we were staying at in Swaziland, Toni-Anne.


What I loved about Swaziland, was how insanely friendly the people are and how you can find some interesting crafts that are truly unique and fun, between all the mass made stuff for middle Africa or China.
Will be sharing the crafts I found next week, Tuesday. 

Information overload

Source

I inherited/rescued an old vinyl cutter from my stepmom. I thought along the lines of accurate patterns to paste onto my lino tiles for art. To find out the machine is 25 years old, that is my age nearly. It works but only on computers that run on XP and have old fashioned paralleled ports for printers. These machines are fairly scarce and I don't have a pc it will run on. So the great search for a computer, that the machine can use was insane. I found my eyes glaze over when they started talking about DDR nad so many other things. Needless to say, I didn't buy the computer, because I still don't know what it all is worth.

I instead decided that if I really want to branch out into signage or proper vinyl cutting. It would cause a lot less heart ache, swearing and stress to save for a few months and buy a properly new vinyl cutter that is compatible with either Windows 7 or Mac OS systems such as what we have at home. 

In my home language we have a saying "Goedkoop koop is duur koop", which roughly translates to "Penny wise, Pound foolish", if I look at ti as a free machine than cool, but it is a free machine that needs a specific computer and operating system and well, Windows will stop supporting XP in 2014, that means if I have technical problems, I am screwed. Then to add to it, the parts are scarce so if it breaks, I have no guarantee that in a year or two I can replace a broken part. This means its a large investment on high risk. Where as a new machine won't have all  these issues since it will be compatible with the technology we already have. 

Is my reasoning wrong?